My 2012 Resolution

Its 2:00a.m in the morning, the date is the 1st of January 2012, I look at the bottom right corner of my laptop just to make sure it also registered as well. I just got home not too long ago from church, finished all the screaming and praying, sweating and dancing, hugging and greeting, wishing everyone including those I don’t know a happy new year. Everyone is thankful for the chance to experience yet another year, even though some where scared (okay maybe majorly me) because of the BH bomb treat, we still wore smiling faces to mask a blend of our joy and fear. Sounds of knock out fill the air, security men chasing boys throwing them causing an early morning comic relief.
Its amazing how one second can make a total difference, how one second can unite the whole world even though we’re on different time zones, we all share one common greeting; “happy new year”. (Still waiting for when we’ll embrace the American culture of kissing someone or anyone at the stroke of midnight).
For that brief moment all our worries are gone, life feels like its giving you a second chance, the last one second and the other 31535999 seconds that came before it, just don’t seem to matter, what matters now is the next 31536000seconds, next 525600mins, next 8760hours, 365days, 52weeks, 12months, the next 1year. Our mental clock starts ticking.
We are quick to make resolution, quick to try and kill off old habits, we make promises we hope and pray to keep. Some people see it as an opportunity to change/turn their whole life around.
Really! You think one second has the power to reverse a whole previous millions of seconds! It could try, but trust me, it’s only for the moment, and it’s only till the greeting “happy new year” runs dry. It may take a day, may take two, may even take weeks to try and live up to the resolution, but in time, we all fall. Fall to the demands of life; fall to the demands of our own greed, and selfish nature, fall to the will of our old habits. In truth, “old habits die hard”.
So why bother resolve when in the end you’ll just feel the fool, why make a promise you wont keep? Just like making babies, it takes 5mins to make one, but a life time to train it. It takes simple words to make a resolution but takes discipline, dedication, and hard work to live up to them. The one resolve I can advice to resolute is to resolve not to have a resolution. You want to make a change in life, don’t wait for the final second to start making that change, start when u know you mean it, start when you believe you can live up to it, start not because it has to be symbolic, like a new year change, but do it because you know in your heart of hearts it’s the right thing, and make sure you have help, cause on your own, you’re helpless, but with the help (man or God) you stand a chance.
I’m not saying New Year resolutions are bad, I’m just saying you’ll be back next year making the same resolution you did this year.
Happy New Year people

letter to santa

December 24th 2011,
Dear Santa,
It’s the eve of Christmas, the air is filled up with the joy and excitement, the smell of gun powder from knockouts is fused with the dusty smell of the dry season, families Christmas lights and music over shadowed by the blaring sound of generators, giving bliss and harmony only to surrounding keen ears. Sisters, mothers, aunties all in the kitchen prepping the food for the day to come, kids are excited for a chance to exceed the usual bed time deadline, taking the opportunity to brag about their expected Christmas gift. Fathers, men, older brother, uncles surround tables of snacks to nibble, washed down with drinks of preference, sharing talks and tales of the year past, while some are fixated on the television. Without a doubt the knowledge of the coming day, the reason and expectation is in the air and lingering behind everyone’s mind. Some thinking about the stress of making it fun from the kitchen, some about the strain it puts on their pockets just to see that smile on the faces of loved ones, and some without a care in the world, just waiting for the combination of the joy of the day.
But for some folks, they take that time to reflect on their present situation and compare to this same time last year, which is exactly what I’m doing right about now; writing your white fake *beep*. Last year was the end of me believing in you, this year I’ve taken things into my own hand, definitely not going to write you a list of what I want, cause its been proven that you’re the worst(and still the best) fraudster ever. Selling fake dreams to kids, telling them u leave in the North Pole, sliding down chimneys with you oversized tummy, talking about flying reindeers pulling sledges. Really!!! Don’t buy that story anymore. What I do believe in are the people around me that show me love, and are there for you when you want and need them.
People who are going to wake up tomorrow, enter the kitchen selflessly and prepare me roasted chicken with mushroom and herb stuffing, dipped in wine sauce to go with the all famous fried rice and barbeque sauces, green vegetable salad, and grilled pork chops. An aunty who has already delivered a self baked 3layer chocolate, strawberry and vanilla cake going down with creamy ice cream, there’s also minced pie or Christmas pudding just in case. Try sending that down my chimney you big fat *beep*.
You think you’re the only one who gives gifts? Well I have news for you; I’ve got my own personal Santa – ME! I got me a puppy for Christmas, friends suggested I name him after you, I said “not even if it was the last name in the world and my life depended on it”, my wardrobe is taking a new turn thanks to some lovely people, and for once I really didn’t bother to want anything for Christmas, and guess what? Its paying off because every gift I’ve gotten and would get would truly be appreciated.
You’ve taught me Christmas doesn’t evolve around red, white and green; it revolves around those you love and love you back, forming a chain and bond that ties us through till the next season. My point is we don’t really need you after all, you just a sick old psycho that feed on hopes and dreams. I also really do hope you took my advice from my last letter.
But just in case you do have a change of heart, you know where I leave. I’m not asking for anything, just surprise me, but just for tips a bold 5 or iphone 4OS would be lovely. Merry Christmas